Ok y’all, it’s confession time!
I’d been stuck in this “icky” place for a while. I was struggling with knowing what to write, feeling like a horrible mom, wife, friend, daughter etc. (You know those times where you just can’t seem to get it right anywhere?!) Well, I prayed and just asked God to just draw me in, to help me feel Him, to make me feel better. Well, let’s just say, we won’t always like what God has to say!
Out of this little conversation where I was asking God to comfort me … He made it quite clear that what He needed to do was to actually “clean out,” my heart. That I had some work to do … Yeah, I was less than thrilled!
He said, “Christine, it’s time you let me clean ya up, if you ever want to have this amazing life I have planned for you.” (I sometimes like to imagine God’s voice in a deep, thick southern accent – maybe it’s my upbringing, but those voices are much more authoritative to me.)
Anyways …. You see, the reason I was feeling “icky,” or like I couldn’t really hear God was because
I was getting in my own way.
He highlighted some behaviors I really needed to address (ouch!), and my anger (double ouch!) was one at the top of the list.
After I heard His little whisper, “Christine, you gotta address that anger, girl!” I reluctantly grabbed my Bible, and went to the index at the back, just to see if there was anything on anger.
Boy was there!
And y’all, hand on that Bible, there was no flipping around, I literally, immediately opened it to this page … (I have to include a picture because it just blew my mind.
If ever God was using “neon signs, sirens, horns, or flashing lights” to grab my attention … well this was it ….
I hear y’all!
So, what does this have to do with you?
Why write an entire series on it when clearly, God was communicating directly to ME … none of you could possibly have a problem with anger in your lives, right?!
What He was highlighting was how extremely dangerous anger actually is.
Anger is something, that left untreated, doesn’t just have the possibility of being “bad” for you … anger, left unaddressed, is 100% ALWAYS, ALWAYS, ALWAYS harmful! (Both to you and to the people in your life.)
So, this series may in part be my words, but the messages, are directly from God to YOU.
Since I’ve admitted my own personal struggle here, my prayer is that we can work through this thing together, that we can cheer each other on with something that doesn’t exactly make us feel all warm and fuzzy (at least at first.)
Because the promise is, what God was sure to ALSO highlight was … when we learn to kick anger out of our lives and hearts … THAT is when He can enter and bless us in hundreds of ways. We can’t be the person He created us to be, or enjoy the life He has waiting for us to live, if we can’t break through the walls of anger first.
So, here we go friend! Hang in there with me, and let’s navigate these waters together!